leaving hope
Saint Louise Was Listening On
1:11 a.m. || 2004-03-27

isolation is key, if ever i learned anything. if you hold a beating heart for long enough, you learn to understand it's limits, you learn to understand it's rhythms... you know that sooner or later, if you squeeze on it enough, it will just

cease

to

beat.

i am learning how not to keep beating, but it's hard. it's hard to learn when not to cut, not to care, not to take it personally... everything i do is taking something personally... even right after you orgasm, and fall asleep, i take the lack of conversation...

well, personally...

and all this new layout says is that i'm feeling sixteen and acting like i'm thirty.

and i don't care.

and neither should you,

don't take it personally.

reeling and stumbling

let me get up on it